Thursday, August 28, 2008

Everything A Woman Could Want...

Hi, it’s Julie here, general assistant at The Wedding Belles, engaged to Matt McLachlan, the man of my dreams – at least, I think he is…and in a job I adore – at least, with women I adore, my best friends in the world…in America, at least.

Do all brides question their lives as the wedding approaches? Why do I suddenly feel as if, in marrying Matt, I will lose a part of myself? I love whom I work with, but not my job…I help all the Belles with their tasks, help their career dreams, but where are mine? Do I even know?

The engagement party is next week. And Matt’s gone again. He’s somewhere in Florida. He said it was a family issue…that was all. I’m marrying him in two months. Am I wrong to expect to know what those issues are?

Something’s wrong, and he’s not telling me. Oh, I know he’s had a lot to do with saving McLachlan Marine Industries, but he’s done that now, and still I know nothing. What is Matt hiding from me? He’s handsome, rich and treats me like a queen. I know he loves me…I’m, well, I’m certain of that, he tells me every day…but suddenly I feel lost, alone – and very far from home. My Australian family’s coming in six weeks for the wedding, but – but…I am in a place I love, with a man I love, working with women I love –

And still something’s missing. Too much is missing. I don’t even know what it is…is it Matt who has the problem - or is it me?

When Matt comes back, I am going to find out.

Julie

posted by Melissa James @ 2:07 AM